Okay, so when I'm a Mom, I guess I have really good intentions of
starting a blog, and then promptly run out of ideas and
stare at the post screen for a month and have, literally,
nothing to write about.
So - because I'm still feeling quite a large writer's block,
I've decided to write about my birth story (how new age of me, I know)
because it seems a lot of people (read women)
are quite interested in how "it" all went down.
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It's my 29th birthday. Not just your ordinary 29th birthday either,
this was my champagne birthday (turning 29 on the 29th).
I am 8 days overdue, feeling enormous and so cranky,
because being like this is not how I envisioned my champagne birthday, at all.
My husband and I and some friends decide to go to the movies,
which, let me say - was a terrible idea.
I was not feeling well all day, more than just typical pregnancy stuff,
but less than actual labour stuff.
Either way - sitting in a movie theatre,
in those tiny seats not built for a woman who is 5'10 and crazy pregnant, was torture.
We went out for froyo afterwards, and I was not pleasant.
We left shortly after to save my friends from my grumpiness, and I
waddled over to the pizza place beside the yogurt shop,
picked up a "pity party" pizza, and we went home.
My husband and I played yahtzee. I was not feeling well, and he kept saying
"do you think this is it? Like do you think you might be in labour?"
To which I kept replying, "Nooooo." I was really scared about going into labour,
so I was in denial for a long time.
We went to bed, and at 1AM, I woke up with rather excruciating pain.
Went to the bathroom - and well, my water broke.
Fast forward 6 hours of beginning labour pain at our home,
lots of breathing and yelling and crying. Chris was a trooper -
keeping track of my contractions with his phone app.
We called our midwife who told me to sit tight, and not go to the hospital,
(she wanted me to take a "nice, relaxing bath" - let me tell you, that did not happen).
and at 8AM we all decided it was time to go.
Being in labour at the hospital before you get to your room is really awkward.
You have to register when you first get there, so Chris and I are literally standing
in line while I am having contractions and everyone, EVERYONE - is staring at me.
I'm getting sympathetic smiles from old women in front of me
(who I wanted to kill at the time, stop smiling at me!)
There was a Tim Horton's kiosk right beside the registration area,
and while people are ordering coffee, they are also getting a good one woman pregnancy show.
The registration area asks you all kinds of rediculous questions,
like what my religion is and what my midwife's last name is.
(I HAVE NO CLUE!
I have something dripping down my leg and I am in crazy amounts of pain.
Buddist? McLovin?)
We finally made it to the labour and delivery area.
After a rather awful exam, and some wait time,
I am FINALLY allowed to go to my private room and lay down.
And now we wait.
And by wait, I mean - have "kill me now" contractions every few minutes for...
19 hours.
NINETEEN HOURS. The pain could have been in a Game of Thrones torture scene.
No exaggeration - contractions are the absolute worst thing I have ever experienced.
After 19 hours,
I was given the greatest thing ever offered me - an epidural.
(Side bar - oh em gee. Get an epidural. You ladies who don't are amazing,
but I do not see the point of going through labour without one.)
Once I had an epidural, my labour was a BREEZE.
It was actually a wonderful experience.
5 hours post epidural however, we are told that my baby is not moving
into the right position, and I will most likely need to have a c-section.
I am devestated, because after all this time, and pain, and investment -
I wanted to have him the good old fashioned way.
I cried, and the Doctor agreed to wait one more hour.
Very luckily, my baby moved into position within that hour,
and 26 labour hours and 6 pushes later (with the Doctor playing
with my son's mohawk during the pushes...),
at 1:53AM August 31-
BRENNAN WAS FINALLY HERE.
I could never explain what it's like to see your baby for the first time,
but it's not a feeling I will ever forget.
The mixture of relief, love, nervousness, pure joy - is overwhelming.
It's a high you will never experience any other way.
Remembering this time brings up so many emotions -
especially as I sit here with my nearly 6 month old son
playing at my feet.
Having a baby is a crazy trip.
And now I have to go because he literally just threw up everywhere.
xo Blond Momshell